As a child and teenager I would always say “ I don’t want any kids, my brother and sister are enough”. I grew up accepting the fact that I would only become the cool auntie one day. Welp all of that changed when I met the love of my life uhm lets just call him “A” for now. I will tell you his name but this is not about him. hahaha.. anyways!! He changed my thought of just being the cool auntie. We talked about our life and someday having kids. “A" was all for it from the get go and told me when you are ready just let me know I want for you to be ready and certain that you want to be a mother to a little human of ours. Growing up the way I did I had decided that personally I wanted to be financially stable, career focused, lived my party years, and so many more little things prior to even considering having a child. “A” was the man I had always dreamed of. He was everything and more and because of that I reconsidered my little personal wants before having a child. We were both career focused, we were both somewhat financially stable..I say somewhat because we both love to shop and have a very expensive taste. Bills fully paid and of course splurging on ourselves so to consider the cost of bringing a life into this world was a bit to think about. I had most definitely enjoyed my “party years” so that was already way behind me. I thought long and hard and then one summer I turned to him and told him “ I’m ready”. After trying for a while we eventually became pregnant with a baby boy. We called him our little blueberry. He was already a dad but this felt brand new to him and this was my first time ever and of course very new to me. Our pregnancy had a few risks but we made it through together. If it wasn’t for him I would have had a very tough pregnancy. I like to say that I am extremely lucky to have a man like him by side. After what felt like an eternity on November 14th 2022 our little blueberry was born. We were finally a complete little family.
I ate my own words of not wanting to have kids.
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